I initially called Harj due to some advice from a close friend. They had tried the healing and recommended it highly. I was at a very low point in my life, and had just separated from my husband. It was both a confusing and a very painful time for me. In many ways I felt lost, even unsure about whether I actually wanted to separate. I was low in confidence after years of trying to fix a relationship which my partner was gradually destroying. I had become someone who was more secure in picking up my partner's mess, than dealing with my own needs. It was a very scary time, stepping away and coming back to myself to have a look at what I actually needed. As the separation was happening I was in constant anxiety, about the future, about my partner and mostly what I was going to do next. It was one of the most difficult things I have ever had to do, to put down my life and walk away.
When I called Harj, I actually did not have very many people left to turn to in my life. Every one was moving along in their day to day business, and one thing I learnt, even though everything had stopped for me, life was still going on for everyone else. It was a lonely time to say the least. There was no judgement from Harj about my situation, she just listened to what I was saying, and from what I remember I was not saying very much at the time. It is all a bit of a haze now.
There was some talking in our session, but not very much. Harj was okay to proceed with the healing, and said she did not need the in and outs of every detail in my relationship. So we only talked about what I felt comfortable with. I did have a few treatments with Harj. The moments that I was with her in the healing I knew I was not alone, and each session was like a step closer to moving on.
After the first couple of sessions I secured myself a job and this was one of my main concerns, as I was going to have to start over and support myself. This actually happened within days of the second treatment with Harj. As time continued I started to accept what had happened, and from each session I was getting more and more strength. I perceived my husband differently to, as before I met Harj I was blaming myself for many aspects of the marriage. I started to feel as if the separation was in fact a good thing, as the limes revealed how much I had changed in my time with him. The day I came for healing, I was vulnerable and extremely lacking in confidence, yet with each session I could feel more and more brightness coming in. I made new friends, got in touch with some old ones, and gained more and more confidence in my working environment.
I remember Harj saying to me, how different I looked, and after about five treatments I felt a real turning point. I was no longer relying on reconciliation, and if there was ever to be one, I now understood it was him that had to make the changes. This level of strength came quite quickly, as I was seeing Harj on a weekly basis.
Had it not been for the spiritual healing I don't know which way things would have gone. I was so vulnerable at the time; I may even have fallen back in to the relationship. It was definitely the easier thing to do at the time. Today I feel I hold my own, and I am able have healthy relationships without that sort of dependency in which I felt so unhappy. These treatments helped me put down very quickly a very difficult part of my life and gave me the strength to stand on my own and start again to create a new life. When I came to Harj I had nowhere else left to turn, now I have my own space, my own job and most of all, I am not living in a state of anxiety.